Desperate And Broken; A Victim Of Myself
life sucks and then you die. some parts are enjoyable such as getting wasted, going to gigs and spending time with friends. i don't feel fat when i eat, but i see the results later. sometimes i binge eat because i don't care. sometimes i diet because i hate being fat. i should go to the gym more but i'm far too lazy and don't have time. sometimes i wake up in the morning and look skinnier than i feel but only because i haven't eaten anything yet that day. some days i feel pretty, some days i feel ugly. every day i go to school with a smile on my face because even if i want to cry, i don't want to have to answer to "are you okay?" even if my friends ask. i don't think i could cry even if i tried anyway. i have fucked up emotions. i know i can be beautiful on the inside but so many people don't see it and don't take the time to get to know me before deciding they don't like me. there are some people in this world who i value as true friends. but even they can't fix what's wrong with my stupid life. they're all going places. they're all better than me. i'm just a failure. welcome to my blog.
female 17 bisexual
subconscious self harm free days: 0
sw: 147lb
cw: 135lb
gw1: 140lb (dr martins) - completed
gw2: 135lb (new dress) - completed
gw3: 130lb (new phone)
gw4: 125lb (camera)
ugw: 120lb (tongue piercing)
blog started: 19-05-2011
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life sucks and then you die. some parts are enjoyable such as getting wasted, going to gigs and spending time with friends. i don't feel fat when i eat, but i see the results later. sometimes i binge eat because i don't care. sometimes i diet because i hate being fat. i should go to the gym more but i'm far too lazy and don't have time. sometimes i wake up in the morning and look skinnier than i feel but only because i haven't eaten anything yet that day. some days i feel pretty, some days i feel ugly. every day i go to school with a smile on my face because even if i want to cry, i don't want to have to answer to "are you okay?" even if my friends ask. i don't think i could cry even if i tried anyway. i have fucked up emotions. i know i can be beautiful on the inside but so many people don't see it and don't take the time to get to know me before deciding they don't like me. there are some people in this world who i value as true friends. but even they can't fix what's wrong with my stupid life. they're all going places. they're all better than me. i'm just a failure. welcome to my blog.
female 17 bisexual
subconscious self harm free days: 0
sw: 147lb
cw: 135lb
gw1: 140lb (dr martins) - completed
gw2: 135lb (new dress) - completed
gw3: 130lb (new phone)
gw4: 125lb (camera)
ugw: 120lb (tongue piercing)
blog started: 19-05-2011
